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| 3.06.2008 |
| Don't Let Me Fall |
Things have changed in my life, I've gotten older, I've matured.
I've faced hardships at home, I've spent a large part of my life being rejected by everybody...
But now it's time to finally prove myself, to show them that I won't falter.
I can no longer find (good) reasons to live in a house where I'm treated like a guest, where I'm more of a maid then a daughter. I can no longer accept living in a house where I'm treated like a child, where I'm told that I'll never amount to anything.
I can no longer handle the stress of watching my parents fight, and then blaming every little thing that goes wrong around the house on me.
The gears have started to move, and they'll only get faster from here on in.
Now, I know what some of you might be thinking. I went on like this at the beginning of the year. And I'm still at home. What gives?
Well, I didn't actually have the means to support myself back then. I was being paid minimum wage, and there was no guarantee that I would actually have my job for any length of time. But the thought never really left my mind.
Recently, I've had a lot of family troubles... Big ones. I had a breakdown over the weekend, and it caused me to do something that I told myself a long time ago that I would never do again. I regret it, and I don't think I could have brought myself back so quickly if it wasn't for my friends... But what's done is done, and it's really helped me to focus my thoughts and energy on finding a solution.
I'm saving money, and I'm getting used to working an extra shift each week. If everything goes as planned, I hope to be in my own apartment by July 1st. I understand how tough it'll be, but I really do think I can manage... I've done my research, I've done my calculations.
When it finally comes moving day, I may ask if some of you guys can help me move my stuff... I don't have high hopes that my parents will help, and I know it would be a lot easier/cheaper to get help from you guys then to hire movers XD
Besides, I don't have THAT much stuff =P
Oh, and in case you guys are wondering... I'll still be going to Gloucester after I move out. I'll still graduate, and I won't sacrifice school for freedom =)Labels: Memoir |
posted by Scarlet Gypsy @ Thursday, March 06, 2008  |
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